I thought that I'd give a little update on my life, it feels like I haven't in awhile. Apartment hunting still has come with no success and I had to move home a couple of weeks ago. Though disappointing, I know that there is something better in store for me, it's the patience thing I'm struggling with. I commute every day to work since I am still working at the clinic, this has acutally come as quite a blessing. The drive is peaceful and has been really good for my prayer life.
Coming back from Romania has been like what you could call a "mountain top experience", where I was pumped about God and life, excited about everything that He has done. Unfortunatly along with the mountaintop there is the inevitable valley, and although I wish that I could walk a more stable line, I still manage to get caught in that ravine. It's when I start to lose focus is when the devil easily tempts me where I am weak. My motives become more selfish, my acceptance be other people starts to become more important than my desire to serve Him. So, I've had to spend some serious time re-focusing and re-evaluating my life. Sometimes I don't know what that looks like, yet He always seems to provide the wisdom I need at the time when I need it.
The thought of going back to Romania has never been far from my thoughts and it seems to be tugging at my heart more and more every day. If you would've asked me a few months ago if I would consider full-time ministry I would've probably shook my head and laughed. It's funny how God plants desires in our hearts that we know can only come from Him. I don't really know what is going to happen, when, or for how long, but the thought is there. It scares me yet excites me at the same time!
O Lord, you are my God;
I will exalt you and praise your name,
for in perfect faithfulness
you have done marvelous things,
things planned long ago.
-Isaiah 25:1
posted by Kim at 10:36 PM
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